again, what she got was, “i’m not capable.”

a couldn’t be more familiar sentence that begins to make her sick. “i’m not capable,” is what she used to receive from people around her. because “i’m not capable,” she has to find whatever she wants on her own. because “i’m not capable,” jealousy has become her shadow that can’t be separated. she has to accept it, no matter how unwilling she is. she has to work harder than anybody else just to get something that is effortless to other people.  people always ask her “why don’t you?” or “why do you?” if she is capable, she would have done it ages ago. if she is capable, she wouldn’t choose to be an island.

why can’t “am not” just become “am?”

why can’t people just make it capable for the sake of her?

why is she always the living sacrifice with wide opened eyes seeing others receiving what she doesn’t get to taste?

why does she always have to rely on herself?

is that what she deserve?

anyway, sorry that she’s forgotten, you are in fact no longer bound to this bullshit.